Alessa Gillespie

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Nov. 9th, 2009

( Private Not Hackable )

Filtered to Asgard

I'll be away for the next week, random places in Emptiness. If anyone needs to contact me I'll still have my journal with me.

Oct. 28th, 2009

Something about today feels wrong, and I can't quite put my finger on it.

Regret is a sin worth killing.

~~What the hell?~~

Tags: aww shit, freudian slip day, malfunction day, what the fuck

Oct. 21st, 2009

I don't if it's because of Halloween, or because I'm being more observant, but just this morning I spotted at least two different candy stores. One focusing on chocolate, and the other on caramel. I looked inside the first one...

If anyone's ever wanted to try chocolate covered bacon, then now's your chance. I'm not touching that stuff with a ten foot pole, but I figure that someone will probably see it as Manna from Heaven.

Oct. 10th, 2009

Wow, the holiday in which children dress up as monsters, demons, and dead things is almost here. I think I might be glad that we don't have to celebrate it here.

...the celebration commonly known as Christmas (in my world) was actually a celebration of the sun. During the winter equinox the daylight would lessen. The people would pray, and around the 25th of December the daylight would grow. People celebrated this event.

Sep. 29th, 2009

Asgard

It's been quiet around here for the most part.

( Private, not hackable )

Private to Bert

Hey, thanks for helping me yesterday. I appreciate it.

Sep. 22nd, 2009

I think maybe yesterday wasn't too bad. At least I wasn't forced to become my own mother. ~~That would have been absolutely horrible.~~ (gone.)

Asgard

I think I'm going to head on over to the shooting range; does anyone want to tag along?

Sep. 17th, 2009

( Private to Eileen, Schrodinger, and Maria )

Tags: family fun, family fun for all, malfunction day

Sep. 11th, 2009

( Private, not hackable )

Asgard

Anyone even remotely disturbed that Niflheim hasn't tried to attack us? If they have, I am unaware of it.

I think I'm going to do some training.

[Edited in later] Even though Niflheim's members have been cut down they still pose a potential threat. Which one of us has a personal issue with any of the members of Niflheim?

It might be wise to keep further tabs on these people.

Sep. 7th, 2009

( Private, Not Hackable )

Pity would be no more
If we did not make somebody poor,
And Mercy no more could be
If all were as happy as we.

And mutual fear brings Peace,
Till the selfish loves increase;
Then Cruelty knits a snare,
And spreads his baits with care.

He sits down with holy fears,
And waters the ground with tears;
Then Humility takes its root
Underneath his foot.

Soon spreads the dismal shade
Of Mystery over his head,
And the caterpillar and fly
Feed on the Mystery.

And it bears the fruit of Deceit,
Ruddy and sweet to eat,
And the raven his nest has made
In its thickest shade.

The gods of the earth and sea
Sought through nature to find this tree,
But their search was all in vain:
There grows one in the human Brain. - The Human Abstract / William Blake.

[Private to Asgard]

Found a building in Emptiness while I slept last night. Going to check it out today.

Sep. 3rd, 2009

[Filtered to Bert // Not Hackable]

Bert, can we talk?

[/Private]

I'm going to be quite happy when fall and winter arrive. The seasons associated with harvest and death.

Morbid?

Everything dies. Years die, but they come back. Death is not an enemy.

Aug. 29th, 2009

( Private not hackable )

It's that time where the temperature is hot and cool. Summer and fall fighting against each other. I'll be happy when fall comes.

[Asgard]

In spite of everything that's happened, how is everyone doing? I think now more than ever we need to learn to rely on one another.

Aug. 23rd, 2009

"It must be hard to be Catholic and gay."

"It's easier than being a Jehovah's Witness and a vampire."

Why am I seeing a cartoon of what looks like a rabbit and a...I don't what that is; sitting under a tree on an island; saying the above?

Anyone else seeing something like this?

Tags: malfunction day

Aug. 21st, 2009

( Private )

[Private to Asgard]

This is going to be hard for me to say; and it's only been about a week since he was killed?

But, I guess you have the right to know.

Alex was me. It didn't happen out of planning; my soul split.

I'm sorry.

Aug. 16th, 2009

( Private/Not Hackable )

The sound of glass shattering can be heard, and a muffled cry can be heard as the sound of feet briskly walk someplace. One can hear Alessa muttering, but what exactly is not known.

"I miss Alex."

[Asgard]

I'm going to be in Emptiness. I just need to ~~talk to someone~~, be alone I guess. I want ~~to talk to someone~~, ~~a friend~~, ~~Alex,~~ I don't know what I want.

I-I'm sorry. I just, I never really had any close friends growing up. I had one, but we were separated when I was 7.

I-I'll be okay.

Aug. 14th, 2009

( private/not hackable )

Huh. Well yesterday was interesting to say the least.

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Jul. 28th, 2009

Let me go I've seen a religion, the light has left me blind.

I never want to go through that again.

( Private not hackable )

[Filtered to Asgard]

Since it appears that we have no control over these days in which we're forced to act against our character, I'll spare the apologies. I just want everyone to know that I'm not like...how I acted yesterday. I'm not going to purify or cleanse things with fire, and I don't think that I'm some deity named "Alizer".

~~I'm not human though.~~ (gone)

It seems that we've revealed secrets about ourselves.

( Private to Blythe )

Jul. 25th, 2009

This entire world is in need of cleansing. A deep cleansing that only I, Alizer can provide.

Tags: malfunction day, the road not traveled

Jul. 24th, 2009

( Private not hackable )

Tags: private

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Jul. 22nd, 2009

( Private not Hackable )

[Filtered to Asgard]

None of you will have to fear Alex again. He's gone, and I have slain him.

If you have questions; I will do my best to answer them.

Jul. 19th, 2009

Filtered to Blythe

Blythe? I found something about the symbols. They're for a reunification spell. I think...I think I might have done that before Alex came to be.

But, the reunification needs to happen soon. Within the next 48 hours.

Alex is threatening suicide. If he dies, I die too. But, please don't tell anyone! If anyone else knows, they might try to hurt Alex.

I'm going to make this right.

Jul. 18th, 2009

Private to Blythe

I was in the library yesterday; I wanted to see what I could find out about twins. I couldn't find anything concerning that; at least not anything important.

I did, however, find a book about 'thought forms' I think the key to how Alex came to be might be in that.

Jul. 17th, 2009

( Private not hackable )

[Filtered to Asgard]

I'm going to be in the library today; there's been something I've been meaning to look up.

Jul. 16th, 2009

Filtered to Kain and Blythe

As we had suspected, Alex's bragging has caused Niflheim to go after him. He was attacked last night, and as I believed, his pride and ego were the two parts of him that were hurt the most. I have offered him the deal, I have told him that should he accept he is not to go after us.

He has accepted.

[Now filtered to Blythe]

I had a dream about a large fire last night.

Jul. 12th, 2009

( Private//Unhackable )

[Asgard]

Snapdragons are said to symbolize both deceptiveness and graciousness. For some reason I'd like a couple of them.

Jul. 9th, 2009

( Private )

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Jul. 6th, 2009

( Private )

Filtered to Asgard.

There's so much going on.

Jun. 30th, 2009

[Filtered to Asgard]

Three more for Niflheim? Is it just me, or does it seem that after our loss this isn't really good for morale?

Actually, I'm pretty sure that everything will work out in the end.

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Jun. 23rd, 2009

( Private, not hackable )

[Filtered to Asgard]

All the traps are set, so that thing won't come back to the barn, right?

I'm sorry about any disturbance that may have been caused last night.

Jun. 18th, 2009

Huh. There's a lot going on.

[Asgard]

Besides our defeat by Niflheim how is everyone faring?

Jun. 4th, 2009

[Private to Self/Not Hackable]

I hope everyone's doing alright. I wonder if I should ask them, but I don't want to bother anyone. Mama always told me that I shouldn't bother people. But I feel lonely. I wonder why Alex won't talk to me. Is he angry at me or something?

I think things will get better after the trial. Even if we don't win, there's no shame in it. At least, I don't think there is. I am not entirely sure what other people would think about it though.

[End Private]

[Filtered to Asgard]

I guess it would be repetitive of me to say that the trial is coming very soon, but I hope the participants got enough training in. I'd wish the participants good luck, but apparently that's actually a bad omen.

Anyways, everyone should do their best!

Jun. 1st, 2009

( Private )

[Filtered to Asgard]

The trial's in a few days; if there's any other way that I can help, please tell me?

May. 27th, 2009

( Private )

[Filtered to Asgard]

My offer to help with the trials still stands.

May. 24th, 2009

Asgard

Uhh, hey guys, sorry about last week. I don't know what happened but, I'm better now! I read about the trials by the way. If there's anything I can do to help I'll be more than happy to!

May. 15th, 2009

[Filtered to Asgard/ Away from Blythe and Sandalphon]

I...

I'm going to be in the library for a few days. I may also not be in the library but I won't be in this house. I don't know where I'll be.

( Private Not Hackable )

May. 11th, 2009

Nice.

[Filtered to Asgard]

Metatron was right then. That's really good. Hmm, I don't think there's much else to say. I feel tired for some reason.

Not that, that's important. Sorry.

( private )

May. 8th, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

I guess I've grown just a tad bored of things. I don't know really. Really.

I've decided to move to another room. One of the empty ones.

[Filtered to Metatron]

I had to move from the room. I hope you don't mind. It's just that I am not feeling so good.

( private not hackable )

May. 6th, 2009

Hmmm.

( Private )

[Filtered to Asgard]

I was wondering; does anyone know about trees in mythology, symbolism of trees, or anything to do with burning trees?

I'm curious is all.

May. 3rd, 2009

Hnn. Peculiar.

~~I feel strange.~~

When we sleep we are dead and to be dead is a good thing. It is only a shame that we be resurrected each morning.

~~What the hell was that?~~

There shall be angels who are assigned to take a soul.

Moses soul was a female spirit. She didn't want to leave.

Not even Samael could take his soul. Sam-a-el

venom/poison of God

Samael is a part of the Qlithoth the Unholy version of the Sephirot. His opposite is Metatron.

Metatron governs Kether the Crown. Top of the tree of Life.

Sandalphon governs the Malkhut sphere. As above so below.

May. 1st, 2009

Thank god that's finally over with! And to think, I finally figured out which fairytale I was subjected to.

Jinxing is according to some an actual supernal ability. An ability made evident by "bad" things happening around someone; such as things falling for no apparent reason, things going off at inconvenient times, etc. This is considered a subconscious form of telekinesis.

~~Or it's likely only because the person is a complete idiot with bad luck~~
( Private )

Apr. 24th, 2009

dis aliter visum

Something odd seems to be happening to us. I have no doubt that it would seem otherwise to the gods. I do find it strange that I am compelled to speak briefly in Latin. I also feel as though I am close to some unknown god.

( Private )

Tags: malfunction day

Apr. 19th, 2009

"Like coins in the hazy
aether tossed
Our souls must by
their sinful weight
Descend to earth
with lightness lost

To "right" the sins
that they hath laid
When thrice in falling they intone
The Happiness shall be thy own

The first note be not by
the Horned One rung
Though it be there that
all sins be sprung

The Bringer of Life and
the Bringer of Shame
The sins of the latter be
even more tame

Though coming
in the Aged One's wake
The Formless One's soul
in fear doth quake

The Needless One, silent,
with hungers all sated
Is least then in sin
with his lusts all abated

For the gravest of sinners
His place be appointed
And if he be lucky
May his soul be anointed"

( Private to Metatron )

( Private to Blythe )

( Private/Unhackable )

Apr. 14th, 2009

Private to Blythe

That herbal tea you give that's supposed to help with nightmares? I think I may need some. Not tonight, just sometime soon.

Please?

Apr. 12th, 2009

Asgard filter

We've been had.

( Private not hackable )

Apr. 10th, 2009

[Asgard filter minus Brandy]

I really hate mentioning this, but, I'm concerned about Brandy. There's obviously something seriously wrong with her.

( Private )

Apr. 7th, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

We got the talisman. We were also confronted by Banru, but none of us were severely injured. We didn't severely injure him either, but our goal was to get the talisman and get out. That's what we did.

( Private, Not Hackable )

Apr. 4th, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

Sanctus Diavolos.

Time waits for no slave.

In the kingdom of the blind; the one eyed are kings.

ETA: Going to Emptiness. Need to clear head. ~~Need to release my anger.~~

[Private to Tohru and Zefiris]

Yes, Blythe and Morana were attacked. But that only tells us that we need to find the other talismans. That is why I propose that we leave tomorrow.

( Private, not hackable )

Apr. 2nd, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

Sharp weapons, fire, maybe hedge clippers are needed now. If you don't know what I'm talking about; just look at the doors. I suspect this is the work of Niflheimer, because I would think that nobody in this mansion would do something like *this*. And if you did? I can only feel sadness and disgust at you.

I am also pretty certain that Tohru, Zefiris, and myself will be searching for the fourth talisman soon.

( Private Not Hackable )

Mar. 30th, 2009

voice post

I have-a feeling this-a day is gohna a be a real-a beach! Is-a eveerybody else-a speaking this-a way?

[Filtered to Asgard]

I wasa wondering if-a we got-a all the pisses of the reedle solved so we-a can-a finally make-a Meetatron all baeter? If-a not then-a we got-a some real-a work to do.

I need-a to get some-a shits of papaeh. Maybe thees-a whole-a theang will-a bih moh queeck if-a we all wrote what-a we a know on-a a piss of-a papaeh.

[Filtered to Blythe]

This-a day is-a really fooking annoying. I-a think-a I'm-a gonna to get a some-athing to eat-a. Maybe I'll-a eat a piss-a something.

Tags: exaggerated italian accent, malfunction day

Mar. 27th, 2009

That is not dead which can eternal lie.
And with strange aeons even death may die.

[Filtered to Tohru]

The third riddle; it mentioned something about where Roman kings would bathe. I believe I've seen a place that appears to have columns much like that of Roman architecture.

It might not be right, but it's worth at least a shot.

( Private/Unhackable )

Mar. 23rd, 2009

( private - not hackable )

The most sublime act is to set another before you.

Prisons are built with stones of law, brothels with bricks of religion.

What is now proved was once only imagin'd.

He who has suffer'd you to impose on him, knows you.

Truth can never be told so as to be understood, and not be believ'd.

[Private to Asgard]

Anymore luck on these riddles?

[AN: Forward dated to midnight, the 24th of March]

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Let me go I've seen a religion, the light has left me blind.

Jul. 25th, 2009

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Jul. 19th, 2009

Filtered to Blythe

Jul. 18th, 2009

Private to Blythe

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Filtered to Kain and Blythe

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Private to Blythe

Apr. 12th, 2009

Asgard filter

Apr. 10th, 2009

[Asgard filter minus Brandy]

Apr. 7th, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

Apr. 4th, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

Apr. 2nd, 2009

Filtered to Asgard

Mar. 30th, 2009

voice post

Mar. 27th, 2009

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